is a friend of the night

its 320, im cramming, still not done. always distracted. opportunity cost of the foregone alternative is not in my favor. its immeasurable. i think my biggest plight in these situations is music. why go to bed when i can still listen to music, drink tea, have the window open to look out and be voyeuristic? i cant think of why i should. living, existing, killing time. why distinguish between the three? lemme go make sure the door is locked. i should say that at night indoors i am completely afraid of the dark. especially when i have poor sight lines. i fear the man in the cloak. dunno what hed want with me or rather why hed need to seek me out. I tend to keep him around just in case. so i guess i shouldnt be scared of him. i wouldnt be scared of him if he wasnt wearing a dark cloak. google has the highest consumer loyalty rating of any major corporation. its kinda frightening. they really could become "the company". i mean whatever though. wed be conditioned and probably wouldnt realize anyway. the semi-sentient thumbsuckers that we are. or most of us anyway. what if the lyrics of coldplay's 'don't panic' (lots of 's) were changed to ''we live in a metaphysically ambiguous world' etc etc. that would have changed their cred 4 sure. i want to paint or screen print a Munch on a large interior wall at a later residence. would be neat. ahh here comes portishead. i love third. perfect start to finish. ive found i really like cds that start with dubbed spoken word. accelerates things.

"


As she walks in the room
centred and torn
hesitating once more
as I take on myself
and the bitterness I felt
I realise that love lost
While white horses
they will take me away
and the tenderness I feel
will send the dog home to me
will I follow ?

Through the glory of life
I will scatter them on the floor
disappointed and soar
in my thoughts I have bled
from the riddles I've been fed
another light moves over
While white horses
they will take me away
and the tenderness I feel
will send the dog home to me
will I follow ? "

of course thats not the first track, but can you say women's lib? i mean this is void left by janis joplin. the 70s and 80s just ruined things. 90s gave us the anticonsumerist side of things and the like so thats ok. speaking of i really want to go protest sometime this week. apparently they have them every day at the world bank. thatd be fun. those would be some interesting people to meet.

i watched stop/loss on the ctv channel. my god. the mtv generation goes to war. realizes it sucks. but still end up going back after goign awol. 'hey kids its ok to rebel, but just fall in line at the end of the day.' come'on kids. hhahah clash at 415 in the morning. so funny. i think i want to be in a clash cover band. i'd sit in front of hte union some night and play trough sandanista! that would be great. i think im done now. i cant wait to vote for nader too. peace and freedom party this time. i might even vote twice. supposedly he lives on 25000 bucks/year. beat that, biden. speaking of biden, my god his mouth. i think theres some manchurian candidate shit going on in his head. id kindof hope. alright pretend sleep time.